guys. are. fucking. impossible.
they. are. so. fucking. hard. to. read.
ONE DAY THEY ARE YOUR BEST FRIENDS. THE NEXT THEY BARELY TALK TO YOU. its. so. fucking. annoying. this is whats happening in my case anyway. Ever since friday when elena spilled that he likes me, he has barely talked to me. We had a really long and great convo in biology. but other then that... like nothing. Still love him, just slightly annoyed. We were texting yesterday and i asked him if he knew what one of the math questions was and he said "You think i'm gunna do it?" he is the biggest slacker ever. he's worse then me. he only does things if they're being turned in, otherwise he doesnt bother. Which makes me wonder what he does with his time... So i said "I can dream. =]" and he was lyk "You kno me better" idk why but that made me feel really really special. it made me feel like YES! and we're friends and stuff like that. so that made me happy. His status the other day really made me think... it said "There's no turning back on the highway of life. We are fast cars." it really made me wonder about him. He may be happy on the outside and fun and full of life. But i have the slightest feeling that he's like that to make friends and to fit into stereotypes. Like people call him by his last name, but his last name isn't his real last name. It's his stepdads. I wonder everytime someone shouts his last name does he feel a twinge of sadness about his real dad at all. He's alot deeper down under. In a way it scares me, it makes me feel like maybe i don't know him. I look at his picture and i think of how lucky i am to be able to just look at him and be with him. I think of like all the little girls in china who won't ever get to see his smiling beautiful face. and i think of all the things he says and does that make me laugh, blush, make my heart want to burst at the seams, make me want to know him more, make me want to be with him. It really makes me think.
GUYS ARE COMPLICATED ! XP